money and stuff

There's a kickstarter that I'd really like to throw as much money as possible at. I've wanted Dwarven Forge dungeon tiles for a while. Just the plain old regular ones for dungeon crawls (which is something my D&D Campaigns actually have a lack of). And now there's this kickstarter AND OH HEY LOOK THE TILES ARE NOW ACTUALLY MUCH CHEAPER COOL.

But I can't really afford that. Actually, it's been very annoying...

Because I previously held around 30 hours a week at work. That now stands at around 5, which means I usually can't even pay my target rent to help out. This is becasue the boss is one of those managers that disregards how hard people actually work, and willingly swaps out good employees for friends he went to school with. Yep.

It's bizarre, but there's no way around it.

(The length of time I've had to nag for my contract is RIDONK too, but whatevs)

Then there's some other money stuff. Like I'd REALLY like to buy some wardrobe things. I actually have some things in mind now, but I'm not sure it's going to happen for a very long time. Which sucks. At the moment I just cycle between a few combinations of items - and I'm not exactly happy about those.

And then I'd really like to be able to afford those glasses sometime??

And then I'm owed around £550 pounds becasue I'm STILL getting taxed despite not earning above the margin or whatever to be eligible for that. I was kind of okay with being able to say "well, at least it's building up in the background until TAX REBATE" but that's a lie. If anything, that's going to be a good weeks or so worth of money wasted on phonecalls to even get those dots connected.

Fucking hell, it's been atrocious so far...

I'd really like to move out, but the thought it beyond laughable. HAHAHAH, the idea of moving to these places where I actually have cool "offers" and prospects, because FUCK, I don't actually have what it takes to pull my finger out and work the magic to get out of this bullshit system I actually haver the luxury to be partaking in.

It sucks that I'm going to watch the opportunity for LIVE MUSIC roll around and not be able to do anything.

I wish I lived in closer proximity to more friends. Or, well, was in proximity to friends at all. It's always such a fiasco to see anyone and get a lift or catch a train - which is fine. But it's just hit the point where unless people are offering me those lifts, I can't get there. I don't have the few pounds for bus fair at the point. I missed rent by £6, and likely will continue to do so.

~The End~

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continued

Fuck, well I just found out it's unlikely I will even get that cash back this year. Fuck fuck fuck.

At least working for what feels like £1 an hour isn't the end of the world, it's just a shitty "temporary" setback, right?

It's still to be mine, and a TBA date? Yeah, only like... over a year later.

I'm upset by this. And it could have all been avoided if the job centre actually sent off forms like they should? But I find it very difficult to be angry at humans, because they excel as incompetence, and it's to be very expected when money is involved.

Shit, I need to get away from all this SO BADLY, becasue this is not how things should ever be.

thoughts

ahhhhhh there were so many fucking dicks at university.

...tomorrow I need to fix my PC and GET TO WORRRKKK........

I want to absorb everything Polysics but there's so much of it?????

It'd be nice to just sit down and listen to music with folks too :3

I'm currently stumped by a whole slew of things SIGHHH

god I hate the way the smell of smoke clings to things

I want a denim jacket. This one:




When I look at these photos I'm like WOWOW THAT LOOKS NICE and then I remember that wait I'm not THAT cute. WIll the jacket make me this cute??? BUY KACJET AND FIND OUT.

haha no money

there are a few others i like the look of but im not going to link them becasue they're not as good and the people are trying REALLY HARD to be attractive, and they're the really call "model faced" people who everyone is super attracted to and it's really fucking stupid.

not many people have faces like that this is just unrealistic. I can see that it suits you very well, tall attractive person.

i have a headache from sniffing things that smell like smoke. I shouldn't do that.

I always feel bad for being like OH GROSS SMOKE SMELLS. its not like I'm bothered if people smoke or smoke around me, I'd just rather my stuff didn't smell like that and some things just cant be washed.

I think if I don't do some of the following soon, things will become very lonely and/or problematic:

-Move
-Find a new job

no wait, that's like it...? But, it's kind of hard and I keep going on about this SHIT.

all talk no walk.

I typed walt there first. He's no walk either, he's all "RUN!" after shooing some goons in the face and jesse looks onwards, shocked. WIth a face like :O

i dont like how when suddenly there's loads of stuff I'd really like to invest in my job fails on me OH WELL AHAHAHAH.

it was a nice distraction while it lasted.

I AM DOING WELL, YES.

I think in my current place the only real option I really have is to just... draw shit... while looking for a job???

I need to work on some skill and get more cash from SOMEWHERE. but i'm always debating whether I should even bother with that as the skill (which perhaps means the answer is no??). But what else is there.

If I wanted to do something like tabletop design I DONT KNOW MAN :((

actually I could do that but fuck.

waht

the end! :::;D

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when i hav e an apatrtemnt it is going to be so gooed you guys