Hah! People!

So many of my problems from last year, that went almost entirely ignored when I had them vocalised (over and over and over again, by friends and non-friends alike...) have since now manifested in others. I'm incredibly torn by this. I feel bad for people, and then the bit of the Aslan Silva 2012 Edition that still lingers is thinking "Well, no, you told me this exact same crap was all in my head - nothing to do with others, and now you're regurgitating my exact sentences". It's a conflicting position to be in, but I'd like to help out.

This is stupid.

edit: Seriously though, people who are like "If I treated you badly it's becasue of this reason and this one".

What do you mean IF?

Are you really that intent on keeping up a fucking front and preventing catharsis? Are you really that deluded and intent on pretending you did nothing wrong toward something, even if passively? :-(

...I'm glad I'm in a mostly good place right now.

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My main fetish, like the thing I'd actually want to experience is incredibly vanilla. Ahahaha. I sort of want to make a post about this - well, elaborate on the previous mention A LOT.

I have no idea why I'm holding back, though?

I wish it was a totes real thing. SIGH.

I feel odd about myself.

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Fuck, I need a hug so badly right now.

I can't wait until moving away will be a viable option.